| | Re: Help!! New or repressed feelings & what to do?
You're a Christian, so I'm going to talk to you like one. The very best advice I can give to you is pray HONESTLY to the Lord about this. Don't go before him laden with guilt, making a bunch of apologies, or excuses, or rationalizations, or beating yourself up. Right now you're doing A LOT of that in here with us.
It's time to surrender. You're in the midst of rough seas, but he will guide you successfully out of if you truly surrender and listen. Cast your cares on the Lord, for he cares for you. You're looking for a level of truth here that nobody on this board can provide you.
Get in a quiet place, confess openly all you've done, exactly how you feel, and do NOT try and hide a single detail, and do NOT try and solve your problem. Don't go into the prayer with a preconceived notion of what you assume the Lord will say, or even what the "right" or "wrong" thing to do is. Release everything, and don't stop until it's all out,, and allow God to speak to you, and navigate you out of these waters.