justean

you would feel messed up. thats the name of the nature game. and u want a child.
years ago i felt like i needed a baby and just felt like sleeping with someone just to get it, but i did not and i am glad.
true love did come around. i sorted my career out and then met someone and caught a year later.
i really dont think he wil change his mind and you wil make yourself worse. always wondering.
i believe that we can change certain things about ourselves to improve things. but major issues i,e kids is a huge issue.
you could take the chance, get pregnant by hubby, but you risk many more issues.
personally when i wanted a child. i was prepared to be a single mum.
but as a parent, you can risk that at any given time n e way.
i.e parents split up.
my hubby and i are split now. ok where in the same house now, but over the 13 years weve had ups and downs. a few times my hubby has left home sometimes 4 3 months. we just needed space. got back together. sure he visits children. but its a single situation again.
who has the children - its me. takes them to school. drs, appts.
you also know what your mum went through.
that should give u some insight.
in my 1st second marriage, i caught pregnant at the end of relationship. but i miscarried at 3 months.
i sound awful, but i promise you it was the best thing that happened.
you might have this different, buy my ex was a pig. lies, affairs etc.
but im glad about what happened because i no longer had that person in my life,who would dictate my life or his child.
having a child with him would have been the worst part of it.
but my 2nd hubby, despite all. is a good dad. he loves them to bits.
and i am happy with him in my life, despite all. because i still like him.