| | Re: Anger Overtaking Me.
Hate him....but don't give him the energy to dwell in the anger stage for too long. He doesn't deserve it.
Go talk to your minister Ash. Keep talking to him. Gain the peace that you need. Last time you spoke with him he gave you some good advice.
Do you go to counseling on a regular basis. I know you have your hands full but you need to release your anger and resentment in a healthy way.
One day Ash...you will find love again and someone to hold your hand. You can't imagine that now because so many other emotions are flooding through your heart. You are young, smart and loyal. Your children will not keep you from feeling love from another man.
Look at life through your childrens eyes. It's unfair to them to lose a dad and have a mom resent them. You know this intellectually but the anger is fierce. Direct it at your H. Write him a nasty letter (send or don't send). Tell him he's a loser azz.
He deserves the anger. Go talk (weekly) to a minister or counselor and vent Ash.
I'm glad you come here to share....