| | Re: Anger Overtaking Me.
Ash I spent the entirity of last weekend writing a hate letter to my H - - I was weeping uncontrollably most of the time when I wrote it - I will never ever send it - heck I don't think I will ever read it - but I think I am learning to get my anger out - because I am a whole load lighter this week...keep venting to us - you will find a very willing set of ears - I know I speak for a few of us on here when I say "we aren't too fond of your H either"....
on a practical note: if you can try to make 'little' decisions...and if you can try to avoid thinking about the future in a negative way - if you can't think about a positive future just hang in the present - cope with day to day stuff -
Now I also think that you guys (your mum, dad everyone ) could benefit from some family counselling - I wish I could send my counsellor over to you - she is a family therapist and I can just hear the sorts of useful things that she'd be saying to you about your situation -
it is tricky on so many levels - very complex -
but number one for you is your precious relationship with those beautiful babies - (do you have any photos you can post ? ) understand if you don't want to (protecting your privacy etc.)
I remember reading once - "If you want to know how strong you are start looking after something living - something that you need to keep alive"...
Through taking care of your kids your inner strength will develop - and grow -
I will keep saying this for as long as you need to hear it - you are ana amzing young woman Ash and you have so very much to offer - and what goes around comes around - your future will be beatiful, strong and bright because you are - and those children will be part of that beautiful future....
your H - he has nothing