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Commited1 · 11-17-2009, 11:33 AM

update- I have been doing allot of thinking and soul-searching and the more I do, the more mad I get. Part of the problem here is me allowing myself to be walked on and treated like dirt. I don't care if your mad at someone, you acknowledge their existence, even with a stern 'hello' when they come home at the end of the day. She fails to do this and though she has always been 'socially challenged', it cuts especially deep especially now.

I guess marriage tends to make you face deep-seated things about yourself. I am always a softy for women and kids. Now I am feeling like our relationship is dead, totally dead, like I made a mistake choosing her as a life-partner, and like I want to just walk away from the lot of them and sart over again with someone else.

I won't do that. I have her only hating me a little for the past few days but the price is I am starting to hate her. Hate as in resentment, disgust, ill-will. I will do my best to not hate her because right now that would be the end of everything.

I just need to grow a pair where she is concerned, do right by my family and stick with my guns.

11-17-2009, 11:33 AM	#7 (permalink)
Commited1 Member Join Date: Nov 2009 Posts: 98	Re: My god, help..... update- I have been doing allot of thinking and soul-searching and the more I do, the more mad I get. Part of the problem here is me allowing myself to be walked on and treated like dirt. I don't care if your mad at someone, you acknowledge their existence, even with a stern 'hello' when they come home at the end of the day. She fails to do this and though she has always been 'socially challenged', it cuts especially deep especially now. I guess marriage tends to make you face deep-seated things about yourself. I am always a softy for women and kids. Now I am feeling like our relationship is dead, totally dead, like I made a mistake choosing her as a life-partner, and like I want to just walk away from the lot of them and sart over again with someone else. I won't do that. I have her only hating me a little for the past few days but the price is I am starting to hate her. Hate as in resentment, disgust, ill-will. I will do my best to not hate her because right now that would be the end of everything. I just need to grow a pair where she is concerned, do right by my family and stick with my guns.