Healing

I just want to say that thinking of keeping count makes me really sad.

My hubby and I have had sex 3 times from the beginning of 2008 to present. I didn't want to keep count but last year (2007), I think we had sex maybe 8 times in total. I have gone for months without any sexual intimacy, not even in a broader sense like making out or kissing.

And it really upsets me. I'm not the one not wanting it. I don't think anything is wrong with me physically or appearance-wise. It isn't true that its always wives who have low libido, lots of women on these boards and everywhere are getting neglected by their husbands as well.

There's just so little help for wives like me. Sometimes I feel like giving up hope, I don't know why it has to be so hard.

I have tried everything, I don't know what else to do. I don't even care how satisfying it is for me, I just want to be intimate in some way, any way. Its so difficult when I know that there would be plenty of men out there jumping to hook up with me but all I want is HIM. I sometimes wonder if I just tell him that I've had enough and I'm giving up, whether he will fight to keep me or just give up.