slickplant35

I have tried to let him make his own decisions, but what frustrates me is that when your in your own business and it dries up in one place you look further and if you looked further and there is nothing oh yes become panicked. He doesn't have the drive to look and pound the pavement for work and it frustrates me. I have tried to just sit back and watch, but when I am going to have to struggle to pay my bills out of stupidity it makes me even more angry. I know a marriage isn't all about bills, but when everything else is screwed up it just makes it worse. He doesn't have goals in life, I have always been the one to set them and he followed and I guess at the age of 38 I want to be taken care of. I have been at my job for 18 years and always been secure maybe not financially but within my life and myself and to see him fault me for everything I say to him to try and help when he can't help himself it makes me mad. I hope I don't sound off the walls but I am so frustrated. A few weeks ago I said to him my daughter was going to be at a friends house why don't you plan a date and take me out his response to me was why don't you plan and take me out.