beni

thank you very much, you guys were very experienced, and expecially Cody were completely right, even though you were very tough on me and made me cry to say how cruel i am with Fred, but it's true, i'm into the thrill of this exciting sex, i'm not grow up yet and i'm not ready for marriage.
but after reading many stories here about how much suffers people have after knowing about the wife's affair, and it will last for many years, i really think that i wont tell Fred to destroy him and to suffer me of seeing his pain. and i dont have the damn gut to leave Fred right now because i love him, i need him...i just tried so hard to heat up our sex life and it works...
i know i'm selffish to keep Fred for myself now, but i just cant quit on him yet, maybe later, but right now it will be too much pains that i cant handle....
about Ben, i still can keep my strength up, and very soon i will need to leave away for 3 months so that will be really helpful of cutting him off.