Just an update...Well, so far everything is still the same. I'm staying at a friends house and just trying to give her space. We pretty much just txt here and there. I ask her what does she want to do? Divorce or work it out. Her answer has been, "I don't know?" That's hard for me to take, but I understand that she is leary of me if what I say to her is just a smoke screen or for real. I know in my heart I'm for real!
I'm ready to grow up and be a real husband and make her #1 in my life. The thing I'm trying to cope with is other people telling me that her, "I don't know?", is actually because another man is involved and that's why she doesn't know. I don't see no evidence of that beside she won't let her phone out of her sight, but it does bother me alot. Especially, when half the marriages at my work have ended in divorce due to their wife cheating on them and that's what they want to talk about. It's funny, when they talk about why their marriage failed, I see why and they don't even know it or want to acknowledge it. They want to blame their spouse. Although, I can't blame her if she is. It's the way I have treated her that has turned her away. I have a poor track record, but I know this is real for me this time and I have opened my eyes. It's like the boy who cried wolf. Now, I have to deal with that within myself.
I tell everyone one thing though, reading the book "Getting the love you want" by Harville Hendrix, has made me see marriage in a whole new light and learned alot about what it takes to make a marriage successful. I'm almost halfway through it and it kind of got me hooked reading it.
The one positive thing happened yesterday was me and my wife went grocery shopping last nite just me and her. I tell you what, I enjoyed every minute of it! Just the small talk and being together makes me appreciate the time we had together. I miss her so much it hurts!
