elwayfanatic

i am DEF. not pushy or needy. i totally backed off of her back in July when were on a break so i could take care of MY issues. i may leave a love note here and there, but i def. hold back on the i miss and love you's, so thats not the issue. she act. said this monday when this all came out that she appr. last week when i backed off so she could focus on work, and that it showed MUCH i love her. so, i have no prob. giving her space and time, and she SEES it. correct me if i wrong but from a womans standpoint, thats HUGE!!!

"It looks to me like she has a long established pattern of closing herself off when she has problems or stress".. 160% true, and she admits that. but you know what...at some point thats just an excuse and you need to get past it. ever since she was a little girl, when she had probs she would go to her room to be alone. im sorry, but thats not healthy at 39 yo. whether its ME or someone else, not many people would deal with that. i have been so patient w her bec. i have a deep love for her and WANT us to work.

not hearing from her all day yest. was very sad for me...but im TRYING to empathize w the losses she's dealing with and put my feelings on the back burner. however...was it REALLY that hard to send me a 5 minute text? maybe im just thinking like a man here...i dunno. what i mean is...if the issue of the loss of her and and nanny were that painful, com,bined with a house full of people, could it just be that it was simply more than she could do emotionally? i dunno....i mean its Thankgiving and you dont even say hi to your boyfriend who u KNOW feels in limbo and hurting?