libby328

Ok so my story is a little old, but I would still like some advice if you have it.

I have been married to my husband for 4.5 years. I love him to death... before we got together he was dating this other girl she got pregnant, found out it was not his so they split ways. I have been friends with him for 16 years so I knew what all this did to him. To make a real long story shorter, we ended up getting together and married, Well about 2 years ago his ex started emailing him and said that she needed some things that she would like to get off her chest. I told him that it was ok for him to email her back (he did ask) well she basically said that she just wanted to say how sorry she was for what she had done to him all those years ago. I was fine with that I even felt a little sorry for this girl.

Then he started talking to her behind my back about our marriage, out son, whatever. The only reason I found out was because he left his email up when he went to the store one eve. I asked him about it and he said that it was nothing. I read these emails and they were not nothing, they were kinda one sided though, she liked to talk about the fun things they would do when they used to have sex, and almost every subject no matter what it was she turned into a sex talk. He never responded to the whole sex things but he never told her to to talk about stuff like that either. We ended up fighting about this every single day. He said that I was too jealous and managed to turn it around to make me feel like i was a physco. Anyway he ended up leaving me, he said that it was not about another women it was just he did not want to be married anymore blah blah blah. Well he moved 3 hours away never saw our son, he was not the smartest about it though because he moved into the same building with this girl that my friends lived in. They told me about it. I was broken apart. I do not remember a time in my life when I was so depressed. I filed for a divorce and tried to move on with my life. But this girl thrived on the drama, she would make sure that I knew how happy they were, she woudl email me and tell me how much he loved her, even email me pictures of them together. I ended up cutting him off blocking her from my email and everything. I still had to allow my husband to contact me because we do have a child together. We mainly talked through text because when we did talk on the phone we would just end upi screaming at each other.

Well about two and a half months after he left, he started calling me and asking me if we would be able to work things out. Right away I was sceptical of this and told him no way, but he was very apoligetic and nicer then he ever was even when we started things in the first place. I told him that if he got rid of her and went to counceling I would think about trying to get back on track. So he did dump the girl, moved back to town and we went to a counsler. We have been back together for over 1 1/2. We are happy now, he is still remorseful about what he did, feels stupid and knows that he is a rat. I love my husband, but here is my issue I can not let this go. Not in like a crazy way but it is still there in the back of my mind. Even though he tells me that he would never do this again. and this stupid B#### still emails him or talks to mutual friends about if we are still together. What am I doing wrong. He has not talked to her since he left. Why does it seem like I will never move past this? I have never thrown it back in his face because I forgive him for what he has done, I just need to forget it happened. Thanks for anything that you have that might help