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Husband's agreement is impossible.. We both are from extremely conservative/ traditional families and were inexperienced (virgins) when we got married. I myself don't know how I am going to react to this extra-marital relationship; that's why looking for advice. I met professional therapist and it concluded that either I should take divorce or buy a vibrator. I bought a vibrator and sometimes I masturbate 4-5 times a day especially during PMS (when I am extremely stressed out). For me it's more like a medical problem rather than social/romantic problem. We both are highly educated and balanced family people but trust me thinking about having an extra affair is completely out of desperation. I am a good wife and my husband is quite happy and satisfied with me. He thinks the same about me, but I keep my feelings private as I don't want to hurt him.I appreciate family values, love, trust and believe in it /practice it - but what do people like me should do? suffer through out their lives thinking this is god's plan for me. and By the way when I suppress my desires -they get accumulated over time and then I will meet some random guy who has a nice personality and would have instant crush on him, and would obsess privately about him for over a year - and he wont even have a clue. This is like being punished for a crime by god, society and fundamentalism for something I never committed.