jeepmanw518

I have been working on me since she left. I have been going to counseling privately and anger management through the Army. I have been doing the Army thing for 11 years and I know I have picked up some bad habits.

she thought i would be so mad when she took all her stuff( i was) but she left the couch and the tv's but took the bed. i have spent a year in the desert with 40 guys in a 100'x50' tent
with much less(power, running water, beer). it so reminds me of college and crappy looking furniture. lol. it really does suck though

i bought a WII last week because she took ours and have been losing weight from stress. I thought that I would like to use it again since i have been throwing myself into my work. i need a break from life and it was that or get a puppy. she took her dog also and i never thought i would miss the dog either.

she moved without having a job. I have been paying for our car and health insurance as well as the mortgage and all other utilites. she got a job at an insurance agency and lasted three weeks before they let her go. i'm not sure why she hasn't tried to find a teaching job except alot of schools are cutting music.

i gathered from her facebook page she started a new job today after a month of looking for another job. its a temp job. the aprtment she rented is a month to month lease. all things that point too when she moved out she wasn't sure if she wanted this to be permanant.

she gave me the "I love you but not the way I should" speech after she moved out. the therapist told me don't believe everything you hear and less than 50% of what you see. which i also read in the divorce remedy book.

so i'm not giving up on her. thank you for responding it has been very hard to not talk to her.