1st time I will see him....
For those that have followed my post "it hurts" will know my situation. the latest.
This will be the first time I will see him since he told me he wants out, and there is OW. It was about 15 days ago since getting the news.
I am picking him up in about an hour, coming face to face with him, I find this whole situation extremely sad. I feel so empty again, and VERY sad about this situation. It has dawned on me. He is here to see the kids, not me. We want to try being friends, which I think we will land up being, but it is not as easy as I thought. How do I act around him etc. Do I hug him, shake his hand....Silly little things going through my head.
Kids do not know yet, so need to be as normal as possible, I am actually thankful the kids will be with me, so I can step back and let them have their time.
I need to go on as if nothing has happened, but gee it will be tough trying to hide my sadness from him. But I do not want him to see me that way. So need to just smile and go with the flow.
Wish me luck, I am sure I will update you the latest, later on.
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