slickplant35

Well bluecreek you said it all and I totally agree. I feel so bad for him, but my needs have to be met. I am not a very big sex person but I just feel it's okay when it suits him. He totally hates when I talk about sex it seems to make him sick so then the thoughts run through my mind that I just don't turn him on anymore. As far as an affair 2 years ago I met a man and was totally attracted to him and believe me he told me exactly what I wanted to hear and was just an all around kind of guy I would dream about and I couldn't do it the guilt would have killed me. I truly don't want to have to leave, but I am very unhappy but such a coward to leave. I have alot of things yes material things but I am not sure I want to give them up. I know it's is not at all a reason to stay. Yes I love him but I don't love the things about him. I just want to feel loved and important. By him saying that I should get a f--ck friend and then later that night wanting to have sex seems so crazy. I can't take the ups and downs anymore. If I sound confused well I am.
Yes my daughter is a big factor in all of this. I know she will be fine after a while but to take that step scares me. I guess starting over and being by myself is a big fear too. As much as I have tried to talk to him he doesn't seem to get the idea. I want flowers, nice thoughtful things I wouldn't care if it was a pretty rock from the side of the road just to think about me he can't handle that. I can't hold his hand anymore and be his mommy.