iheartmywife

for those that know me. I'm back. my last post was about what to get my wonderful wife for our second anniversary. well I must of been a fool.
I sat her down a couple of weeks ago and told her she had to decide what she want. me or the other guy. I told her that I was ready to leave. she decided that she was going to choose me. GREAT. so we then decide that we need our own place. so we started looking and found an apartment. everything was going great. we were going on vacation the 16th to dominican republic to celebrate our anniversary.
we have been startin to buy stuff for the apartment and move some stuff in. we even put money down on a bed set and we bought a mattress. we then went to ikea and decided on the dishes living room stuff and just about everything in the house.
so things were going great. we were supose to be going to counseling with my pastor this sunday. this was something she wanted. we both did.
then something told me to go online and check her textin. it was high as hell. so I asked her if she was still talkin to him. she said no. lies. when your with someone long enough u no when they are lyin. so I press her bout it and she admits it. I told her that what she is doing is wrong. all she's doing is hurtin me. then she continues by saying that I'm a good person and that she cares about me and she got love for me. again a lie. she doesn't have love for me she loves me. she later admitted it. she then says she doesn't no what she wants but she doesn't wanna hurt me. now I'm left with a very expensive vacation and our first place. what am I to do? please help me.
I am honestly lost. i no I love her but love is not enough. I want my wife back. she made me think it was my fault when it first happened. I've lost weight over this. just when I thought I was happy I get thrown for a loop.
HELP PLEASE