 My husband doesn't care when I cry.
My husband is verbally abusive and often makes me cry. When/if I do cry, he ignores me and sometimes even becomes angry. He says he loves me but how could he really care if seeing me in pain like that doesn't matter to him? He doesn't console me, try to make it better, or even acknowledge what is going on. It makes me feel so unimportant and invisible. Its to the point where if I feel like crying, I will leave or go somewhere where he cannot see or hear me because I cannot stand the way he acts towards it. I'm not emotionally unstable and rarely cried in other relationships or in life in general before him, but he just cuts at me so deep and has a special way of bringing me down. When we argue and I cry he sometimes tells me I am pathetic and suggests that I "go somewhere else" or get over it... sometimes going as far as to say things like "god are you on your period or something?" even though it is obvious that his words or actions are what upset me. He treats me so horrible but then after the fact he denies it and says he loves me and treats me good and all of that. Its a vicious cycle, it seems like the only time he is good to me is when I threaten to leave, then he is right back to his old ways. After dealing with this for over a year now I am hurting inside all the time and feel like I can't explain it to anyone... We are so far from family and friends, and he acts totally different when we around other people so no one notices it. I'm beginning to feel like I am not worth loving and its killing me inside. Does anyone else's husband do this to them?
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