slickplant35

Sorry to start a new thread but another question.
My husband and I just do not see eye to eye.
He says I look to control him and I say if he would control his own life I wouldn't have to get involved. I have been keeping track of how are lives have been. Every arguement/disagreement is always my fault no matter if I didn't say 2 words to him. He never takes fault for anything. Last week I wrote him this big long letter and left it with his cell phone that was 8am in the morning. Never heard from him all day and then when I got home he acted like nothing was wrong. Never said a word till I mentioned something about it. He is clueless what I need and want in my life and I really want out and told him today but then after I always second guess myself and wonder if my choice is wise. I am scared and I am more afraid of being broke and can't afford to even pay attention. I know it's the right decision considering we just can't get it right. Everytime we argue he is going to try and it lasts for like 2 weeks and then he could care less again. As I get older I want someone to love me and hold me and kiss me. I mention having sex with him and he thinks it's disgusting that I talk about it. His words exactly. I can't win and I know in my heart it's over but I am scared to death. We have tried several times to make it work, but we really did come from different worlds and even though we have been together for so long I can't get past his way of thinking. He rambles on and on about nonsense and I know it's nonsense and he wants me to chime in like it could ever be real. I am not saying anybody that dreams is silly but they are not real and stop thinking they are. Sorry to sound so bithchy but I feel like I am running in circles and it will never stop. Sorry for venting