Is he depressed?
This past week has been very hard for my boyfriend and I. We have been together for about 4 years and just this past week things have changed.
First, he says he gets weird moments where he feels like he doesn't belong with me- like hes living someone else's life. They are very brief moments and then he is back to being normal and loving me 100%. Then he has been very anxious to the point where he has small anxiety attacks and thinks about everything that could go wrong in our relationship. I dont understand what hes going through at all..
A couple days ago he saw his doctor and talked to her about what he was feeling and he was prescribed anti-anxiety and anti-depressant meds. The only thing is- he doesnt want to take them because he claims hes not depressed and he thinks the pills wont work.
A couple days later we had a serious talk about what was going on. He told me he feels like he lost the connection we had together but at the same time hed change anything to make himself feel the way he did before; its like he cant control what hes feeling. He has been telling me countless times "all I want to do is love you" and its stressing him out that he cant feel that way. He was so anxious that we couldnt have sex because he couldnt get an erection. We both cried a lot that night and he had to keep reassuring me that he still loves me and that he is sorry. We are planning on getting married in a couple years so its definitely not that he wants to break up. I know he loves me but theres something in his mind that is changing him.
He went on to tell me its not just me he feels differently toward. He said he lost interest in a lot of hobbies he liked to do- like reading or playing video games.
He saw his doctor again today and suggested trying to relax more and seeing a therapist if he wanted to stop taking the pills. Im not sure if that will help or hurt him in the long run.
I know there has to be something wrong with him, and I think it might be depression- or a mild form of it. Another contributing factor is that his father passed away about a year ago at the end of July, and it could have triggered this abnormal behavior during this month.
I have come to understand when he tells me things that would normally make me sad that I shouldnt take it personally because I know how he truly feels about me. I am in this with him and I will support him 100%.
If you have any idea what this could be and have any advice relating to my post, please tell me. If you have any questions please leave them too.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story.
-Sarah
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