redsnake22

My first post here and I need some assistance please.

I have the greatest relationship one could imagine with my wife and 2 teenagers. We have actually spent much time and money to keep a healthy family going for over 20 years. We (all 4) have studied books and all of us have done the Landmark Education courses and have gotten a lot out of it for our lives. The communication is open and works well within this family.

My only issue that has been bothering me for a couple of years now is that I have thoughts in my own head that I can’t get rid of….AND at this time (although with great communications skills on every one's part) I can not share with my family.

The thoughts are basically revolving over the idea that when both teenagers are out of the house and as much as love my family, I’d like to have a second chance and a blank canvas in life. To not be bound to the “yes” I said many years ago. To be able to get out, travel, take risks that one would not take with a dependent (wife or kids), to possibly explore other relationships, etc.

Now the confusing thing is that my wife and I have actually discussed this before. Her take was “Honey if you ever feel the need to leave this marriage for any reason, just come talk to me”. And I’m 70% sure it is genuine and she can accept that but have doubts for the other 30% that she just collapses hearing this.

When we did discuss this a while back (as mentioned above), It was discussed such that we clear our finances, secure the kids in college and on their own, pay off all debt and make sure we still have a great family and relationships together even if we may have other partners. Get togethers would be often and frequent.

Is such a thing is even possible? How could it be done? Where to begin? Some direction please.

Many thanks in advance.

redsnake