jessi

DawnD,

Thanks for your concern, I'm doing alright, with each week that passes I feel better about the outcome of all this, I have some family and my boys if I need them and then my girlfriends are there for me as well.
I find the hardest part about this whole thing that he seems to be upset with the whole situation and he says I'm so eager to get him out....
But he tells me he loves the other woman.....
It's so confusing, at times he seems sure of his decision and then lots of times he is crying saying stuff like I'll have to come over before work to shovel the driveway and that he will always love me.
I truly think he is sorry for the pain he has caused me, he has blamed me for the marriage breakdown and I think he has come to a realization that he was not there for me as well, not sure he even knew that before, he thought he was the only one unhappy....he says stuff like he will be around for years to help me with the house/pool stuff......when I say I'll be fine without him he crys and leaves the room.....

It seems at this point he is having a harder time with his decision than I am. I am trying to accept and move to a place that is good for me......
so confusing at times