Thanks for the reply, Aug. I can say that the weekends you speak of aren't exactly the type of thing I was talking about; however, I can see how this is one of the risks taken when going about this scenario. My goal here was only to get answers relating to experiences of this scenario, for whatever reasons were behind it. I must say, there IS a lot more to this, some of which is in "considering divorce" section. If you click my name and read, you can better understand the background. I can even go further into it than that, but I don't bother to because I really haven't gotten many responses in the past, so don't want to waste too much time. Hence, I really appreciate your reply
I can also tell you that we've went to counseling and this has helped us in the communication department, which has helped things to be more tolerable for a bit only to go downhill again more recently. The problem here is I married for the wrong reasons and have come to realize this. However, I realize that some people can get through this regardless and ultimately I'd love to see that happen for us. But unfortunately, unless my feelings develop for my husband the way they should as we continue on our journey, I really can't say that I think fabricating feelings is possible and overall, I am coming to the realization that this is unfair, to both of us, but ultimately him. He's a good man and can probably find happiness with someone who loves him mutually. That's a brief synopsis of the conclusions I've come to. Ultimately, I just want happiness for both of us and am not sure how that can happen considering all things. Thanks again!