What does that mean? EMDR? How did you drive him away? My husband's tolerance and patience for me is dwindling. I make things worse on myself bc I start believing something MUST be going on when really there is no evidence. He is tired of not being trusted. But he loves me and says there isn't anyone else he would put up with this from besides me. I feel like I am falling apart mentally and emotionally. How did I get like this?

I guess in reality I know why I am so mixed up but I don't know how to be different...how to stop hurting inside and believe and have faith and trust. Its so painful.
I am sorry he left. Are you sure that is why he left?