Tonyaap20

You know it is hard to not be angry with him, because he tells me that it is like he has lost me. It's not like he is comparing me to other woman, instead he compares me to what I used to be. I talked to him about it, and I think that I can find a way to get past the hurtful words that he said that he did not mean to hurt me with.
Referring to Intro - Getting small is what I am scared of, because I know he would wine and dine me again and treat me like I am a queen unlike he does now... and I dont want to feel completely awful when he does that. I think the past couple of years I have just be focused on the fact that I thought he was an SOB for saying such things to me, that he should love me for me! But you know in that time I just got unhappy with myself... and I really truly know that losing the weight would help me be myself again which I know I am not anymore... Thanks everyone for the helpful advice... I need the positive attitude that you guys are giving me....
To top it off, what is so hard to see past "attractiveness" is that my H actually weighs about 275 pounds himself... so I guess that makes me angry to the extent that he is not Mr. Handsome himself but I love him anyway.