Bad Guy

Update...Right now were still seperated now for almost a month. Nothing really has changed. We talk here and there. I don't see any progress in anything getting better. She still says, " I don't know?" It's frustrating! I miss my wife and kids! Everyday is a struggle. One minute I'll feel up about things then the next I'm down.

She tells me she doesn't trust me. She can't get over things in the past. I tell her that we had a bad marriage together, but we have the rest of our lives to be happy with me giving it everything I got. Still, she is fighting with her feelings and are waiting to see if they come back? I have trouble with this because I believe nothing can get better if I'm not given a chance to prove myself.

At this point, I am really about to throw in the towel and give up. It is hard for me because I want my family back. At the same time if this isn't going to work I want to move on. She doesn't want to let go because she's worried her feelings will come back but right now she doesn't feel anything for me to allow us to work it out.

When is it time to move on and let go? It's been a tough month full of ups and downs. I can't see myself going through this another month or even another week. I just can't!

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