anotheryear, justean, thanks guys...
i think you both made some good points and yah, i think that my wife is a little bit insecure about the whole situation (me being younger, the kids) but i always tried to support her in that way... the only thing that kept on coming up was this 'open marriage' policy... which i think comes back to her insecurity about me staying with her long term or running off cause i want kids.
its like saying 'i love you and want to be monogamous and want to be with you forever... but... if you decide to have kids or go date others, then bye bye, have fun!'
i cant remember who wrote this on some forum but i had to make a note of it because its something i've been thinking about a lot lately...
heres the qutoe:
Being married has little to do with the law, wedding or other external stuff. You're married when you feel and act married.
i dont think we ever acted married since we met... which is great because we have a lot of fun and arent like other typical married couples we know (boring, tired), but when it comes to acting on the invitation to date and meeting other girls, now i'm in a situation where i'm meeting girls that are 'marriage material' yet i am married to somebody who is not... even though in every possible other way, my wife is everything i've ever wanted in a woman and more.
try figuring that one out.
....life is weird for me right now, what can i say
