wannabefree?

I have known my husband for 7 years now and we've been married for 2. We have no children.
My husband is compassionate, thoughtful, funny, intelligent, good-looking, and I know he would be a wonderful father one day. So what's the problem?

Problem is, is that I think I'm not in love with him. I think I married a friend. I have no sexual connection with him, and have been struggling with that since before we got married, although he is still very interested in me. There was a time when I felt a spark, but that was a long time ago, and I feel guilty that it's gone.

I feel that our marriage is convienent, that we're more roomates than anything. We don't share many common interests, and I am happy to pursue mine alone, but I want to share things with him and have companionship. Whenever we spend time together, it's always doing what he wants to do.
I can't remember the last real conversation that we had. We always have 'small talk,' but we rarely discuss things in depth, something I have a real need for.

I moved across the country to be with him, and changed my life completely for him, and I'm happy where I am, but I'm questioning myself for doing that, and I'm feeling a strong urge to be independent and to do things for myself. I feel that I need to develop myself as an individual before I can really give myself completely in a relationship.



I don't know what to do. I feel that I would disappoint so many people by separating or divorcing my husband, and that it could be a huge mistake because he's such a 'catch'. I'm also so indecisive and wishy-washy about things. On the other hand, he deserves to be loved by someone who can reciprocate his love, and I can't find that love for him right now. And I can't stay and cheat myself. I'm at a crossroads righ now.

Any words of wisdom would be greatly appreciated.