lilgreenmonkey4

this past monday i went out with some girlfriends of mine to a house party. my boyfriend was 300 miles away with his family. he decided to go there due to a HUGE argument we had earlier in the day. at the party i did some unfavorable things beginning with drinking , and smoking pot (which i haven't done in years). all of this led to the fact that i ended up cheating on my boyfriend. i did not have sex with the guy. three of my girlfriends and two of my guy friends were playing dare in a room. it was just us. i ended up kissing two guys, one of the girls, and flashing them. those were my dares. being drunk was not an excuse for what i did but i feel so terrible. i have never ever been a cheater. i told my boyfriend what happened as soon as i got home that night. i could never lie to him. i told him and he freaked out and dumped me. we talked a couple of days later and he said he could never let go of what i did. then after he left he text messaged me saying that he was willing to consider the proposal i made to fix us which was to give him a few weeks to try and think if he can get over it and we could start over fresh. that is where we currently stand. we have almost been together for 3 years and i can not picture my life without him. i want so badly to fix this i have made him promises i am going to keep which are such as not going to clubs or parties without him (unless it's only girls). basically not to put myself into that situation again. i will stop drinking. no more smoking. i will make sure he knows where i am at all times. i know he won't trust me at first and that's why i'm ok with doing all of this. is there anything i can possibly do to make things better? i really don't want to lose him. he's starting to have high hopes that we can fix this but i don't want him to give up.