AZMOMOFTWO

I'd be willing and able at this point if he came to me and said he screwed up and wants a fresh start. He'd have to show me he meant it, but I don't know if he ever will do that. He's only 50/50 on whether he wants to continue the marriage. I have told him I deserve to be with someone who is 100% sure. He said "I know". So I guess he's saying he doesn't deserve to be with me then...its how I interpret it. But the more pain he inflicts the less I love him...When he's gone I actually feel better its when he comes back and leaves again that leaves a fresh wound. I know for me I can't do that for too long. My kids deserve better. I also am completely unable to eat at this point, its been 36 hours and I'm just plain unable. I tried. I also am not sleeping well. I honestly think he does not care, he's so locked in his own world...