jessica123

HI
I have only just found this site and i'm so glad i did, i really need to talk to someone without judgement as they know my husband and i.

Let me tell you my back ground.

I met my husband when i was 19, i fancied him straight away, we hit it off, within 1 month i was pregnant, we got married 6 months later.
12 years down the line we have 6 children!

6 years ago my husband had an affair with our 17 year old babysitter, i found out and hit the roof, but i forgave him.
We moved away and started again, having 2 more children.

Evrything was perfect.
But then i turned 30!!
i was very depressed about my size having gone up from a uk 10 when we met to a 22!!
i decided to do something about it and lost 4 1/2 stone going down to a uk 14.
I got alot more confidence and remembered what it was like to be me!!

My husband and i had always had a great sex life and got on very well i thought he was my soulmate.

I thought after i had lost the weight he would fancy me more as i looked more like i used too! but NO he stopped wanting sex, he didn't show me any attention he made me feel as sexy as a lump of lard!
i tried everything i could think of, but a woman can only take so many knock backs!!

When i went out with my friends i started to get attention from men and it made me feel great.

This 1 man caught my eye and i started seeing him, wrong i know but i need some attention.
He made me feel me!!

This was 18 months ago, and my husband is still like this!
It has made me stop loving him. i do love him but i'm not in love with him anymore.
I do still see this guy and i think i am falling for him and i can't stop it!

i don't know what to do!!

Do i stay in a marriage without love and affection or do we go our seperate ways now?

i have tried to talk to him and he doesn't know why he is like this but that doesn't help me!

advice please
xx