827Aug

I'm sure I did say something when my husband blamed me for his affair and picked me apart. I honestly don't remeber what I told him about the affair. I think I told him he couldn't blame me for the affair. He made that decision. As far as picking me apart, I had plenty to say on that topic. That was in front of the counselor too. After he went thru his list of eight petty things, he got to Item 9. Item #9--Like of Self-Esteem. Anyway, I couldn't pass up the comment to that one. I said," after an extensive list like that one, who would have any self-esteem left?"

Today was just awful at work. All of the playing and money spending has just about ended our business. Yes, he is focused on the business now, but it's a little late. I think we are going to have to close unless a miracle happens. Unfortunately, I believe if that occurs our marriage hopes will end as well. I think he will see himself as a failure and distance himself even more. And my crying isn't helping. The business and this marriage together are more than I can possibly cope with. My lack of coping skills was on his infamous list too. However, my counselor says no one could possibly cope with everything he has piled on me.