ljtseng

You probably like going to work because you feel productive and in control. when you go home you feel all your effort amounts to nothing. im not a parent but i have three older sisters with kids and they've all told me there are many times they want to run. i dont think you are a bad person or selfish, just overwhelmed and dont have the tools to get your home under control. There are definitely tools out there to help you and you are not alone in this. Try going to counseling, reading parent books, and getting a support group. Your home can also be a satisfying aspect of the work you put into it. you just have to learn the right tools so your efforts produce positive results. and get a support group for your own emotional wellbeing.