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Thank you so much for the input! I definitely feel and can see that my wife is disconnected, and it’s because of this I am also disconnected in certain ways too. This has all become a domino effect. Knowing that my wife is this way really bothers me the most; to the point where I feel very uncomfortable being around her. When she is this way with me, it tends to bring out certain insecurities in me, which is probably why I feel that she is probably cheating on me and why I constantly check her cell phone and our cell phone bill usage summary.

I tend to expect her to act a certain way when things are bad and we are arguing, and when she doesn’t respond in that way or in a way that I think would be fitting of the situation it makes me feel and think that she does not love me as much as she says she does. Take our current situation for example; right now things are very bad, I have been sleeping in my son’s room for a couple of days now. She has said that she wants to make things right, that she does love me and does not want to lose me but yet she makes no effort to make things right. She doesn’t ask me to stop sleeping in my son’s room and doesn’t try to talk to me in effort to change things. I find myself unable to sleep at night and she sleeps without a worry. It’s this kind of thing that really gets to me deep inside.

As for her not knowing the name of my company or my work number, she tends to make up excuses; excuses like “you have only been there for three months and it’s going to take time to remember,” “I had your number written down but I forgot to memorize it” – things like that. She also does this even when I point out her lack of affection to the kids or me – there is always an excuse or reason behind it.

You're totally right in that the there is a break down in the communication process from the both of us. When I see that she acts a certain way towards me I tend to respond somewhat the same way – a sort of tit for tat. As for our discussions about her affection or lack thereof, they’re more like me doing all the talking while she stares at the wall; usually without much response from her. As you have suggested, I have tried sitting down with her to point out some of the things I expect out of her in terms what I would like to see her do in certain situation but ultimately I also tell her that I shouldn’t have to point out to her how to respond or expect for her to respond but that it should be of her free will and that it should be a natural process. She will usually try to work on this but it's very short lived. If she is upset I do my best to console her, but on the other hand, if it’s me that is upset she sits and watches tv.

I have been a fool for staying in this relationship too long. I will review all my options and will definitely consider getting a lawyer as you have suggested. Thanks for your help and advice.