firenice

Sorry but i think people make mistakes and i am currently in the same situation but a little different. I have been married to same man for over 21 yrs, the last 10 or so hes been up and down with job issues. One after the other and spends alot of money when we have it, but both to blame. TO make a long story short he doesn't cheat and i have never either. But because of many financial problems lately, like losing our home and other issues, our love life suffered over the past 3 yrs especially. We have two children, one already in college and one boy 13 still at home. I have stayed with him through the 21 yrs of ups and downs...but i don't know what happened but lately for the last couple yrs i have been in contact with my ex-boyfriend from my teenage yrs. We were lovers from about age 15 to 21..then i moved away and we broke up. We were young but i never forgot about him and because of the newer technology now we contacted each other. Nothing brutal , just emailing, and facebook...but not even phone. We said though we would like to see each other just one more time. So this has been the communication for the past 3 yrs while i have been feeling my marriage has been very up and down ..Well, i finally called him a month or so ago and said im going to do it and he said sure come visit. Hes divorced for 5 years...so i visited him for what was suppose to be a weekend and it ended up being over 2 weeks. Get the picture?? We weren't going to do anything sexual just have a good friend see a new city and stay in separate rooms. Well of course my girlfriend was right and after the 2nd or 3rd day we kissed and then that was it...now i am home and depressed...While i was with him we reconnected planning how my life would allow me to be with him again, but not rushing into anything drastic because of my son and his fear of me jumping from one relationship to the next. He and i can't believe after 30 yrs we could still love each other...is it real or is it just a familiar past caught up in a lonely world for me right now. I felt young again, going on dates, having sex again thats passionate and so forth. But now i feel like i maybe shouldn't have gone, cause its worse now being home and thinking of those two weeks...I called him everynite the first week and he told me he loved me when we hung up, but then the last phone call he confused me cause he was like im busy with my work and etc, etc, and its late right now and i can't decide your problems over this conversation..so i hung up and i haven't called him back...maybe hes frustrated too because he says you have alot to figure out. So maybe let her just do her thing and the truth will come out. I don't know how i can help you, since im the other party, but i thought letting you know your wife isn't the only one, might make you feel a wee bit better...peace.............Should i call him back...btw? I need a mans perspective, he doesn't want to get me in trouble since im the one married, so i have to always call him...he did email me though and ask me about my valentines gift...