Originally Posted by MarkTwain

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The net result of all this is that his behaviour is not helping your self esteem. From everything you write I can tell you are a very valuable person.

Whatever life throws at you, you need to keep that love for life burning in your heart. With him or without him. He is weak at the moment, maybe he is having a mid-life crisis, or maybe he is keeping something from you. Either way you don't have to listen to any voices from without or thoughts from within that tell you are not a beautiful person.