iheartmywife

thank you guys for the advice. I will try seeing if I could set up another counseling sesion with the pastor.
we spoke today. she feels tired of having to defend herself. and I'm tired of being lied to. I want to believe her but its hard. I don't want to be hurt. I don't think that its that much to ask for. I'm also afraid if I can't get past this I will lose myself and lose her.
I've tried being the tuff guy saying if things don't change I'm gone. but I no if things don't change I wouldn't wanna go.
I came home. she cooked. she must of said two words to me. its this disconnection that drives me crazy. if there wasn't this feeling of being alone when I'm with her I would be able to start healing.
I no I'm not perfect but I still need to be loved. when I spoke to her what is she willing to give up and change to keep me. she couldn't answer me. there was no right answer but for her to say something would of shown me that she really wanted to work on things. she asked me if I want her to quit her job. why would I want that? all that would do would make the situation worse. when I asked her what am I worth to her she kept bring up stuff to push off the question. one thing that really bothers her was that one of my ex friends told me that I could do much better than her. well what would a good boyfriend do. I cut him off. he too was like my best friend and also tried to introduce me to females who naturally you wouldn't bring home to mom. I completely dropped him. I knew him since I was in elementary school. I'm 25 now. I was willing to let that go for my wife. she takes it for granted. then she brought up that I never brought her around my friends but I tried she just never gave them a chance. its either my male friends don't like her or they don't have my best interest at heart. and the females well they all want to sleep with me. I've given up all my friends to make her happy but she can't do the same for me