ljtseng

I understand your resentment. I gave up my family, friends, and my job for my husband. In return he lied, manipulated, cheated (in my opinion), and neglected me. He doesnt appreciate what i gave up for him. Its been two years and I'm still a little bitter about it.

I guess i just learned from it. My goal is not to do things anymore because i think it will make him happy. i want to do things i think will make me happy. If i do something for the sake of the relationship I do it because that's what i want, and it has nothing to do with how he's treating me at the moment.

You are smack in the middle of a whole slew of very strong emotions. Just keep thinking things through, getting counseling, reading, posting, and after some time things will mellow out. And remember, the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different results.