draconis

Sex doesn't equal love. At best it is a part of a whole. She is showing you love when she cuddles with you and you need to understand that every time you try to turn something into sex that you are feeding a problem.

I'll relate this to easier terms. Scoring/cutting it was popular when I was young and more mainstream now. the reason a person might cut themselves was because they would be hurting on the inside and not know how to handle it. They would create a physical problem to represent the mental one because they could then fix the physical problem.

You are doing the same type of thing. You have an emotional problem you can't or will not deal with. So you make it physical in nature so that you can deal with the issue. But you never can solve the real problem that way. Sex doesn't equal love and great sex doesn't mean I love you more.

hope the best for you I will continue as much as I can.

draconis