I have never written on any of these things before and feel like sometimes it may be able to talk to perfect strangers rather then people I know.
I have been with my husband for over 10 years and we have 2 beautiful boys. Married for 7 of these years.
We have had many problems throughout our marriage because I lie and havent worked. I have created a lot of debt and often can be verbally abusive to my husband and children.
I havent had an income in months and am recently looking for a job. We stand a good chance at loosing our house due to my neglegence and not working. About a month ago, I was talking to a mutual friend of ours on myspace. My husband didnt want me speaking to him anymore and i didnt for a while. When things got worse here at home, I began talking to this other person on the internet again, and we exchanged very explicit sexual comments. I had also spoken to this person on the phone before as well. My husband found the emails we were exchanging and was enraged. he had every right to be, I am not knocking him for that. But he called me a whre and a ****ing *****. I am not a ***** because i didnt sleep with this other guy, and it wasnt my intention. I was very lonely, and i know that is pathetic,but it's the truth.
My husband proceeded to go to a very good friend of ours' house and showed him the paper with the emails on it. I feel disgraced. I know I was wrong with my actions, but is it wrong for me to feel angry towards him?