onelonelymom

Alexsky: Counseling is not an option, he will not go. Even though I have told him if I catch it again, I will make him go to counseling, he won't hear of it. I can not trust him, I check the computer and the history is erased and he use to never do that, so it is like he is lying to me. I try to initate the sex and he just blows me off. Does no good. I want sex, but not if he would rather have the porn and masterbate, I do believe I resent him for this, I don't want to, but I do. It has also got me questioning my love for him. I see the only option of leaving, but I'm scared, not of him, just scared of the major change.
Thank you so much for your reply and your help. I am glad you realized you had a "problem" and are working on it, that makes me smile that there is hope, but I don't think there is with him.
He claims he is playing the video games to "destract" himself from the porn, but he is still leaving me "alone" and left out. If it's not the porn and the video games, I hate my marriage right now. Why would the history be erased on the computer if he isn't doing anything? That is my question. Again, thank you!