 Don't know what to do
I don't know where to begin. August through the very begginning of October of 09 I was talking on the phone and texting with a man I had met at a "girls night out". I was not emotionally involved, I had no feelings for this man, I was just being selfish and inconsiderate and just liked the attention. I ended contact with him. My husband found out through our phone bill and I confessed to it all. I love my husband with all my heart and am so sorry for hurting him and losing his trust! I feel like I have been doing everything to try to move forward, but I feel like it goes unnoticed. Most times I feel like I am walking on egg shells not knowing what might set him off and put him in a bad mood and ruin the whole day. He's not a very good communicator (neither am I, I guess) and so if he's hurting or resentful he won't talk to me about it. When he gets in one of these moods most times I just try to leave him alone and give him his space, a lot of times I just cry, and very very very few times I just get frustrated. When I get frustrated I don't even express it because I feel like I don't have any right to feel this way since I caused this. I don't know what to do anymore. I do not want to leave him. We have a 2 1/2 year old son together. I love my husband and desperately want to get past this but I don't know how or what to do to help. We both dance around it and it's never brought up anymore. I don't feel that he would be open to marriage counseling either. I feel like an empty shell just going through the motions lately. I don't know how to help him get past this...
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