lostinlove1

thanks susan2010, I know I am just holding onto hope. It sort of makes the pain a little more bearable. Yesterday afternoon we had it out and i told him to leave!!!!!! I asked him what was up when he came home and he said he was having second thoughts on his staying, I lost it and told him to pack. He seemed surprised however i was so angry for him hurting me constantly. I had text him on my way out to collect our youngest from gym saying he has hurt me for the last time and it was his mistake and loss. I told our youngest that dad was leaving for a while to sort out some stuff and that he just needed to go away, this prompted him to talk to both the boys last night. I imagine that was not easy for him however it was real. He did send me a text saying he did not say he did not want to still try however i told him to leave. I replied with a lovely (lol)text stating in no uncertain terms that this was his choice not mine and no matter what he tells himself or others the truth is that he wanted out. So today is the first day that it has been real - my husband is leaving me. Very hard!!!!!!!