Even though I didnt get on the plane with her yesterday I decided to go down to florida tomorrow. I have plans to call her from the beach where she will be and talk to her.
I really cant wait to see the look on her face when she realizes its me!
Soo, I'm seriously considering attempting this one again...but this time, there will be hours/days/weeks of talking with her about this issue and the why's. This time, she will goto counsiling by herself and without me in the room.
This time, we are going to kill this weed at the roots so it cant grow back.
I kinda feel dumb for even considering doing this let alone understand where my mind is going. I have to be very careful and not send her the message of "it's ok, you can do this to me anytime you want and I'll take you back". This will be a challenge.
The problem is that I am addicted to her like a herion addict. It may even be somewhat unhealthy. I cant stand being more than 5 feet away from her let alone halfway across the country.
Ahhh.. why does life have to be sailing along so perfectly and then smash you in the face with the biggest challenge of your life.
Since this happened to me, does this mean that I never have to pass a kidney stone? Ha!
Jason
