Don't know where to turn
I have been married for almost a year. And things were good. About 2-4 months things started to change. My husband didn't really want to do anything.... We would get invited to events and he didn't want to go... I would end up alone in the bed on a friday night watching tv with my dog and going to bed at 9... Then that started to be a typical friday and saturday night... He would just go the computer room and play online games.. So then I though okay I married a geek, whatever I'll deal. Like I said i'm 24, and it drives me nuts not to "live life", you know- go out dancing, the movies, travel... Everytime I would mention a mini-weekend trip he would say we don't have money... But we have the money... So then to cope, I just shop every weekend all day.. I figure if we aren't using the money for travel, I might as well enjoy it some way. I'm feeling trapped, this is not what I signed up for. At work yesterday, a nurse came to his job and screen for depression, which he told about and that he meets the critieria. I feel even worse, since I work in the social service field, and have been planning to get my masters in cousenling.. The signs were there and I missed them. I feel worse that when he confronted me he said, he procrastinates, is careless, and would rather be alone than with me. It was hurtful becuase he is my bestfriend, and I feel like it something I'm doing right, even thoughI know it's not... Its how i feel.. The nurse if going to refer him to a doctor for a possible prescription to treat it. I feel like I have no one to talk to, my friends aren't the best- there the kind that gossip, I love my family would hold it against me.. I just need someone to talk to. I'm scared, sad...confused
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