| | Re: Wife's 2nd emotional affair
Wow, thanks for the insight. You just described what I am feeling when I even had trouble doing it. It is good to know I am not the only person going through this, but, at the same time, it makes me even sadder.
I would like to work it out with her but like you, I dont believe I am getting the entire story.
She left for work today and now shes not coming back or even wants to tell me where she is.
The only thing she is doing is saying she needs time and every moment that I am away from her, even as I sit here, I don't know what she could be doing.
Tonight will be painful and I think if I can get through tonight then tomorrow will be a new day.
I am going to sleep tonight and when I wake up in the morning I am not going to care about her feelings anymore. She obviously stopped caring about mine a long time ago.
I have to let this woman go. I hate the person I have become because of this. I have to stop thinking about her. She stopped thinking about me.
It's so much easier to type that than to actually do it. I'm driving myself crazy....
I have to stop doing this to myself. I have to stop this pain I am feeling. I have to start only thinking about myself and my two dogs. I have to stop.
She is only focusing on "how crazy" I am being. And everytime I ask something of her the answer is almost absolutely always "no!". I guess I just assumed if someone did something completely and utterly disgusting to the person they truly loved, they would say more "ok, anything you need, I am a fool".
She cant get passed how badly I am hurting and I havent heard her even say she's sorry in the last few days.
Brandy, if you ever read this... Always know that I love you and I would destroy anyone who tries to harm you. I know I've been acting crazy lately but isnt love crazy? Dont you think if I didn't love you, I didnt care about you, then I wouldn't be the least bit upset?
Don't you think the amount of crazy I have been is somewhat of a reflection on how much I love you?
Think about it.
For now, sleep well, my door is always open for you.