I think TTC has ruined my sex life

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We use to have sex all the time now we can go months without it. It is driving me crazy!! I tryed talking to him and that just made him mad. I tryed taking a more active role and that just left me very very fustrated

. I want my marriage back the way it was. I can live without kids

if it means I can have my sex life back. I feel so lonely and it really hurts to feel like the next man that show me any attention may get more than what I really should give him, just b/c I can't get my H to have sex with me. I am afraid and saden at the thought of what I might do if this goes on for much longer.
Well thanks you letting me vent.