Re: Don't know where to turn
When we first meet, we both drank alot.. Then we both grew out of that phase. Since we've married he usually has a beer after work here and there. This friday was the first time in a long long time he has drank that much. Maybe it's his way of dealing, I don't know. Last night we went out to dinner and to the movies with some friends.. In total he had... 1-2 beers and 2 long islands... That's kind of alot for one sitting.. Needless to say I had to drive. Oh another thing that was irritating was fining porn on the computer, which he has never been into, so I was annoyed by that. I'm trying to stay positive, but I just find myself angy alot of the time. We went out to dinner on sunday at a resort which was an 1 hour drive and we didn't talk alot on the way there, on the way back was a little better. It was hard to have a goodtime though, I'm still hurt and really bitter. Oh and did I mention unhappy.. I don't know, I didn't picture marriage like this, I guess I was and am still pretty naive about things.. But I guess when one part of your life is going good another part has to be bad.. I'm doing very well at work, and got promoted for the 2nd time this year. The new job will be alot of travel, and with all this going on, I'm a little nervous. But I'm excited for the job, and it sounds challenging. I'm not a work-aholic or anything, my boss just loves me and I'm a hard worker.
I just didn't think our marriage would be like this. All of my other married friends love being married and when people ask me... I feel forced to put on a smile and gush how great it... When it comes down to it,I'm just very very angry and disapointed.
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