Originally Posted by demora

Hello,

One thing that I guess has me in the dumps a little bit is the fact that another year of my life has come and gone (birthday coming up) and still no babies. In some ways, I have to say this is a good thing. We are going through some difficulties in our relationship right now, but on the flip side, I know that my body is getting older and older. The possibilities of something going wrong if I should get pregnant are increasing.

To add insult to injury, I don't produce eggs, so for me to get pregnant, we will need help. In order for that to happen, they said I have to lose A LOT of weight.

We've talked about adoption, but with my husband's porn problem, I don't think we would pass the home study.

My feelings of wanting a baby keep getting stronger and I hate it when I see all of these babies in the news that are being abused, abandonded and killed. I often wonder what God hates about me so much that He doesn't see me fit to be a mom...but that's when I get really angry about it.

Thanks for adding the spot to vent.