Re: Oh God I don't even know where to begin..
Susan, you are 100% correct. I SHOULD have left him a long time ago. But instead I wallowed in self pity. A few years ago I started planning for the day I would go and started my own business/career. I should have never married him. I was young, on the rebound from my first abusive marriage and was just stupid. I know that. But since he's stopped drinking he has stopped all that. He is as sweet as he can be. The NA beer thing bothers me alot. I can see how this would lead to drinking again. And believe me, the day he brings another beer in this house is the day the police remove him permanently.
I feel so guilty thinking about leaving. He's trying so hard. I don't want to hurt him.
Which is ironic as he's hurt me worse than he can imagine.