09-03-2008, 08:43 PM
Join Date: Sep 2008
| | It'll be my second marriage...tell me, is this that I feel normal???
Hi everyone, first off, I am new here, I have to admit I feel I never thought I would end up in a forum, but, I truly believe that venting or simply talking about it might just make my lil problems go away
I have been married before (no kids). I left him because I was just tired of being left at home alone...not being taken care of emotionally, etc.
I cheated on him with a man we new (acquaintance) and I had always thought was an awesome person, friend, etc.
SO, after getting involved I immediately ended my marriage, I left him. I didn't want anyone to know I cheated, I didn't want to hurt anyone either.
It was all really fast. So, of course, the regrets and doubts come along the way:"should I have left?", "should I have tried more?".
The thing is, all this million question started to come to my head more often then normal AFTER my current partner (same one I cheated on ex) proposed.
When I look back and try REALLY hard to remember it all, I understand I would probably go right back to the miserable life I had, but you know...it's hard to tell after some time.
I love my fiance'. He is a GOOD man. Hard worker, wants a family, great with children, super polite and friendly, we love to be together, cook, go out, movies, etc, etc (btw, we've been living together for 2 1/2 years) Sends flowers...good in bed, not 100% my physical type in a man, but I can be pass that... he is, overall,the whole package.
WHY in hell do I keep looking back??????
Is this normal? Am I over thinking it all too much????
Again, it is not often, but it happens....makes me feel bad and guilty and messes with my mind when I am fragile, like PMS, lol
Last edited by Mrs.B; 09-03-2008 at 09:14 PM.